One of My Biggest Fears

A dear friend of mine went through what is one of my biggest fears, taking precedence even over fear of being eaten by a shark. Losing a child before they have a chance to live.

My heart breaks for her and her family. It has been two years since she wrote this. As I read her story, I broke down several times in tears, still after two years. If you want to read her story, "Empty", here it is: http://lostinterrobang.blogspot.com/2014/01/empty.html . I would encourage you to check out her whole blog as well.

Even though I'm currently behind in "the game" (meaning it's just me and myself currently ha), all girls dream of their futures. Be it future wedding, life, children, house, etc. And every time I think about my future children, I cannot help but worry about losing one of them.

But for me, I know that my God is bigger than my worries and when that time comes, I'll need to turn my worries over to Him.

A Sea of Tears

Here's another poem I wrote. It's called "A Sea of Tears". 

Drowning in a sea of tears

The worst of my fears

Coming true

Losing the one you love

The waves crashing down on the cove

That was once your life

Heart ripped in two

Because there’s nothing I could do

To stop you leaving

All the memories we’ve made and shared

The ways you showed me you cared

Where are you now?

You said you’d always be there

Imaging being without you makes me aware

How empty I feel

Wanting to lose myself in this feeling

To be washed away instead of dealing

With the pain

Never-ending rivers flow from my eyes

Wishing it all to be lies

And for you to be back